Feel GOOD diary 2013

Haha.. While blogging about the do good diary, suddenly had this idea of having a feel good diary too. I suppose this is more for myself, to cheer me up, keep me going strong, motivate me when I am down, and lastly just to purely record anything positive, good that came my way during the course of day. Maybe can also act as a reminder to be thankful for what I have?

Anyway. Let's start it off and see what it eventually turns to..

#1 Redeemed a free Grande size Starbucks drink as I have accumulated enough drinks to earn it.
#2 Traffic was smooth to work today 21/02/13, and I got a relatively good parking too.
#3 Received a compliment that my 2 kids are cute and beautiful, just like me, from Kelly Woo :-) 21/02/2013,
#4 Hubby gave me a surprise and came looking for me for lunch today :-) 06/03/2013
#5 Bought mum's birthday present - a GPS for her! 06/03/2013
#6 Dress which I bought for Evonne came in a parcel today! 06/03/2013
#7 Am in a food tasting session today with the bosses, free meal yay!
#8 It's National Breakfast Day! Got my free Egg McMuffin from McD!

Do GOOD Diary 2013

I have decided to start this diary, to record my good doings for the year. This will incentivize me to more good, and also to reflect in the future of what good deeds were done throughout the year. Feel good factor if yo like... Well, a good deed should not go unrecognized right? Even if it's only recognized by myself.

Well, here we go..

#1 stopped when I have right of way, and allowed a Silver Toyota car to exit from a junction while on the way to work.

Pain!

I was carrying Marcus down the stairs with a toy trolley because he was crying after waking up, and somehow I fell at the turning point of the stairs while holding onto Marcus. Thankfully Marcus wasn't hurt, but I think his leg might have been bruised slightly because of the awkward way I fell.
Me? Well, I have big bruises on both legs, with skin coming out. I did not realize it But a big piece of my left elbow's skin is also scrapped off so now those injured area are all raw and expose to air and things. The slightest touch tithe wound will cause me to jump... It is just so painful.

My husband, who heard my scream when I fell, came and look and check. Once I told him that I fell down, his reaction was was not careful, next was why was I holding onto Marcus still which is why I fell. From just now until now he did not even ask was it painful, where did I hurt myself, was there any blood? NOTHING! I am not sure whether I am more upset or angry now.

He should manage his time and fold all his prayer stuff when the kids were asleep, not when they are awake and running around. He expects me to go and run after the two while he peacefully folds hs stuff there, right in the living room? It is impossible to control the movements of those two nice they are awake, if he thinks it is possible I'd like to see him do it! It is always like that, he just expect things to be done his way, everything and everyone to follow his time, his rules, his words... And when he says he is busy, you must MAKE SURE nothing disturbs him! So this being the case, and now I have multiple bruises on my hand and legs to remind me, do you really think I Want to have another baby so that I can be even busier than now, and have to run after 3kids? NO WAY man!!!!! You have clearly show your reaction and compassion during such circumstances, and I am not satisfied with it. S the answer is NO!

Appointment with dentist

Am going to see the dentist again now to fix up my teeth, the filling that she did for me 2 weeks ago is hurting every time I try to chew on something, so its making life really miserable for me. Lets hope hat this trip is the last visit until June when I have to go scaling again...

Good morning...

Start of the new year, and everything is almost back in full swing... Including the jam...
Took me 1.5 hours to get to work this morning.... It was jaammmmm man! No more getting up slightly later in the morning.. And pretty soon have to pack daughter's school stuff and iron her uniform too...

Being stuck in the jam is taking to much of my time... Precious time wasted on traveling to and from work everyday. Thankfully I have my iPad, so sometimes when I'm stuck in jam I can a least check my mails, surf the net or just play a game or two to alleviate my boredom.

But should such routine be continued?

My ipad2

Recently got a new iPad, the new iPad with Retina Display, I.e. ipad4.
So I put my old ipad2 online for sale, and today I'm gonna meet the potential new owner, let him check condition of my iPad, and if he is ok we will deal.

At this juncture, I'm really heavy hearted to it go... I like it a lot! It accompanied me to many places, and was my best buddy at work...

If the deal goes through today, I know will miss my ipad2.... Soo....

Hmmmm.....

Blogging from iPad

Yay, there is an app for Blogger, which means I can blog from my iPad in future! This is cool!

End of the world

According to the Mayan calendar, today is the end of their calendar, which some have interpreted as end of the world. To the Chinese, today is Winter Solstice, a day where we celebrate and enjoy tong yuen.

If today is the end of the world, I would spend an entire day with my kids, hugging, kissing and loving them. Spend time with mum, spend time with my closest family members and of course with hubby; telling all of them I love them and thank you for being a part of my life.

I also hope that all feelings of hatred, anger, upset, negative feelings towards one another can be forgotten. If today continues on, at least in our heart and mind this is a new beginning, forget about past negativities preventing us from moving forward. Let us just start anew... be the better person and forgive others. If others cannot do it never mind, at least you are doing it. I would like to be the better person.

Love,
Sue

Just feeling down...

After being stuck in jams for 3 hours before arriving at the office, I have second thoughts about going back to work.

I was working from home the week before as my baby sitters were away on holiday, and my boss was kind enough to allow me to work from home for the 4 days.
Matter of fact is, eventhough I was taking care of 2 kids, and the household chores, I was not as tired as waking up early to go work, jam to work, jam coming home, have dinner, play with kids and off to bed...

And my thinking of quitting the corporate got that bit stronger... but really dunno what to do, where to start... and it is depressing when we can never see eye to eye pertaining to important things, so things are always just left where they are... until they become important enough for us to do something about it.

I don't miss the jams, the traffic, I miss taking my son out to breakfast and picking my daughter up from school, and putting them to bed in the afternoon. I enjoy spending time with them...

I am very down the entire day today, so very unproductive that I feel guilty for being so unproductive but I just cannot pick myself up today.

Is it time to kiss the corporate world goodbye?

Burnt out at work, I guess...

I have been feeling really tired, lethargic and drained of energy lately.
I just feel very tired, and nothing that I ever do, at home or at work is good enough. 


I have the same boss at home and at work, never satisfied with things.


I want to apply for leave, to put down all my roles, and just be myself. I want to recuperate and just put all issues behind and just be myself, go and pamper myself, eat whatever I like, do things I like, dress the way I want, and be single, free...etc


Too tired of always trying to be the role of a good mother, good wife, good daughter in law, good daughter, good manager, good employee, good colleague, good everything... sometimes being good is still not enough.


Rest, I need...

Headache。。。

今早已经开始头痛，经他这麽一闹，现在更加头痛了。

不想回家。如果你回家只是做家务和睡觉，没人和你谈天谈心，跟你说话就是骂你的，你还想回吗？

做多错多，不做也错，少做也错，总而言之好人难做就是了。

just want to share photos of my babies with you loyal fans of mine...

那些年。。。

那些年，那些快乐的时候，到哪去了?

就为了当年的坚持，而换来今天的下场吗？

Don't mess with me, cabbie!

Yesterday, I sent my car for routine servicing, and went off to do stock take. When my car was ready, I tried to hail a cab from Jusco Cheras Selatan to my service centre.

There were a bunch of taxis lining up outside the main road of this mall, and I went to the first in line and told them where I want to go. These taxi drivers were all hanging around outside and chatting with each other. When I told them I wanted to go Balakong, he asked for RM6, i.e. did not want to use the metre. "What? RM6, it is so near!", no choice because had to cover for their round trip back to this point to pick up other customers, explains the cabbie. Why should I pay for round trip transport to go to a destination less than 5 minutes away, and I am paying cab fare what! So I countered offer RM4, but he would not accept it.

I decided not to be blackmailed nor threatened, so I walked off and continue walking, half thinking that if really in the event no cab will take me I will probably have to walk all the way, under the hot sun... I walked along the highway, and tries to hail for another cab, thank God another cabbie came along when I stretch out my hand, and this honest cabbie was willing to use the metre. In the end, how much did I pay for the cab fare? RM3.30.

Really, it is no wonder I don't like to take cabs these days, they are operating like transport gangsters, demanding for fixed cab fare, and forcing customers to give in to their overrated cab fare!

Feeling faintish...

I am still trying to recover from my thumping headache last night...

It started right after our 1 hour outdoor photography session with the kids... think must be the sun, heat stroke perhaps.... but really felt it when I went to bed last night, when I woke up in the middle of the night with a thumping headache, that continued till this morning.

Went to work this morning, popped 02 panadols, but headache is not getting any better. The thumping has stopped, but I am feeling a bit floaty, and faintish. If I really stay very still, I can almost feel as if my surroundings are moving a little. Don't know why this is so, and why this is happening, usually Panadol will do its job, but not today.

A colleague of mine commented "Don't tell me you are pregnant?" I was on alert immediately and said, "In both my 02 previous pregnancies I only get morning sickness that make me throw up, and not feel faintish...", and NO, I am not pregnant in case you are wondering.

Maybe I should go lie down, or take a 15 minutes nap and see if it helps.

Bidding farewell to a huggable teddy bear..

Today at around noon, the entire first floor of MAS Complex A, Admin building 1 gathered around the waiting area outside MD's office, to wait for and to bid farewell of Tengku Azmil. There was no grand send off, nor was there goodbye dinners that MAS is famous for... he had a quiet send off, with only us few walking him down the stairs.

It was a very sad moment for all of us, we had enjoyed our times working with him, and truth be told, he is a good boss. We are very sad that he is departing, although we know he is probably relieved at having this burden finally lifted off him.

News of the share swap literally demoralised the entire company, we are all quite demotivated and discouraged, like a group of army that has lost their leader, and not knowing what to do. We do not know what is going to happen, what the new structure is going to be, what happens to TMO... there are lots of uncertainty, alot of things that are still in the dark, alot of unknown and alot of blur areas still to be figured out.

People outside of MAS, and outside of TMO may not feel the same kind of sadness that we felt, but we did. We were once his army, and we battled alongside him, and it is just sad that his departure was so sudden. He deserves a standing ovation for having to manage a challenging company in tough times. A lot of people are very good at saying what could have, should have and what they would have done had they been in his shoes. They can boast about what they would do, but mind you, you are not in the tough situation that he was in, so you don't know what kind of obstacles he has to go through. I would like to see you run a company of this size, and with this kind of environment and make it better.

Don't just talk big, everyone can do that.

McD don't give change now?

This morning I was at the Connaught McD drive thru, and my breakfast set meal came up to RM8.95, I gave the cashier RM10.00, and she only returned RM1.00 to me without any explanation.

So McD does not give RM0.05 change anymore is it? The cashier did not even bother explaining that they are out of RM0.05 or why is she not returning my RM0.05 change. Don't get me wrong, I am not particular about the RM0.05, it is a matter of principle that I am after here.

Why ah?

In a happy mood!

Somehow I am just in a really happy mood today.

This morning traffic was exceptionally good, 50 cents toll have been abolished...
My morning meeting went well, got to have lunch with hubby and meet mum during lunch...
Got refund from income tax (woohoo....!)

Only thing is I hope Evonne is not having fever, she had slight fever last night and hopefully it had gone away by now. I think she is teething again... but she wasn't really making a big fuss last night so it was ok.

My son is now 3 months old... he is adorable, his eyes big and has an infectious smile... he is cute and handsome...! And he is very well behaved for a 3 month old, at least where sleeping at night is concern.. He typically only wakes up for milk around 4 or 5am now, just once so we do get a good few hours of sleep at one go...

This happy day will continue.... I just know it!
:-)

Almost 38 weeks!

Ok, time to let the cat out of the bag.......

For those of you who do not know, we are expecting our second baby... I am now 37+ weeks pregnant, so technically I can pop anytime now... sooo.........

We are as excited about welcoming this new bundle of joy to our family... with his arrival, I feel that our family is now complete, and I can breathe a sigh of relief as having completed my duty as a daughter in law, wife and mother.. haha... (hubby if you are reading this, it means I am ready to close production now... hehe)

Due date for the baby is actually during the 6th day of CNY, which is 08 Feb, but I have a feeling that this baby is eager to come out, so will probably be earlier than 08 Feb. This CNY, I have not purchased any new clothes, shoes nor anything new for myself.. Why not? Well, like I was telling my colleagues during lunch today, it would be futile buying CNY clothes now as I do not know if I get to wear them, and also depressing if I have to wear maternity clothes during CNY.. so might as well not buy and live with what I have, afterall it will be a short period before I pop anyway..

You will probably hear from me next after my delivery... so..... update you then!

感慨。。。

新的一年， 新希望？

我不敢期望太高， 只希望快乐无忧和平安的过就好了。

有些事情闷在心里真不好受， 虽然已渐渐成为一种习惯， 可是还是盼望可以有倾诉的对象。
只想说， 能忍就忍吧。。。忍得多久就多久。。 当真的忍不到时，就随心所欲吧！你已尝试去包容和了解， 真的不能就别再勉强了。。。 何苦要折磨自己呢？这是不值得的。

做最后的一次努力和尝试吧！加油！