Happy Cotton Anniversary!

I logged onto facebook today, and saw this anniversary message by hubby to me:

"Wishing My Dear Wife A Wonderful Wedding Anniversary;
A very special thank to her to be a wonderful wife;
Sharing my Joy with a more enchanting ways;
There are thousands of anniversary gifts available;
And I believe & I have had the most valuable gift I ever had"

I am so touched... that is such a sweet message, and he wants to take me out for dinner tonight too! That shows effort on his part, doesn't matter where he wants to bring me for dinner, it is the thought and effort that counts..

Here is wishing hubby a Happy Cotton Anniversary, and many more to come... and to my daughter's daddy, for being such a wonderful father.. love you always dear...!

Evonne's Almost 1!

Evonne is officially turning 1 tomorrow, but we have had 02 rounds of birthday celebrations for her over the last 2 weekends.

The previous weekend was at our house where we celebrated her Lunar birthday, and the weekend that just passed was to celebrate with my side of relatives at my mum's place. All in all, both parties were a blast and we had a good time.. just that preparation for party is tiring, and how much food to cater is always a headache... we do not want to over cater and have alot of leftovers, neither do we want to under cater and starve our guests...

Anyway... just want to share with you her birthday cake. It is jelly cake, and it is in the shape of a cow because she was born in the year of the Ox!

Erm.. I can't rotate the picture... don't know what is wrong with Blogger, or maybe I am the one not knowing how to rotate it... but until I figured this out, you tilt your head to see the picture ok?

Ta!

Evonne is turning one soon....!

My baby daughter, Evonne will be turning one very very soon... Her western birthdate is on the 27th Oct, but according to the Lunar Calendar, this Sunday would be her birthday.

My daughter's 1st birthday! Can't believe she is one already.. hahaha... she certainly does not behave like other 1 year olds... Other one year olds I know probably know how to walk, and will at least have grown a tooth or two... she has er.... none so far... but I am not too worried about that as that is not stopping her from eating all sorts of food.. just wish that her teeth grows faster so that I can introduce more food to her.. and it would be really nice to finally be able to hold her hand and guide her while she walks..

We are planning a small party, with immediate family members, to celebrate her birthday. The food menu kept changing, from the initial just KFC to now a variety of food.... including sausages, satay, noodles and all...

I am looking forward to celebrating her birthday!

Happy Birthday Darling Evonne!

*muacks* hugs and kisses from mummy...

夫妻相处之道 - 君子与小人

翻来翻去的，睡不着觉的只有我一人吗？

君子与小人第一回合， 小人输了。。。可是我后来才发觉原来两人都输了。。。两人原来这么的没共识，没默契。。。如果赌注是一断婚姻，两人不是都输了吗？

真难怪我姨丈在我阿姨病间脾气暴燥，我现在才了解。。。我们难道表现的比他好吗？在如此小件的事情上，我们都不能好好的解决，不能有共识的解决问题，只会各自发脾气， 各自蛮以为有方法去解决，完全忽略了对方存在的重要和需要。难道我们不需要对方吗？有问题我们各自解决吗？这一问，我倒也想到了，我们大多自己解决问题，因为无数次的吵架就因不能有共识和认同而发生，而演变了今天的这个局面。这发现恨很的敲在了我认为满意的婚姻上。。。现在已如此，将来若路更难走，我们走的过去吗？我真的很难过，很伤心。。。眼泪也不听话的一直掉， 一直掉。。。

当回到同一床上时，才发觉床原来这么的大，中间早已隔了一个大空间，无论有无女儿的存在，我们间也隔了许多许多。。。为啥睡在隔壁的人好像很陌生？从何时开始呢。。。？

My thoughts today...

Random thoughts for the day...

最近比较烦， 比较烦，比较烦。。。

没有过不去的事情， 只有过不去的心情。。。

哑子吃黄莲，有苦说不出。。。

辛福不是必然的。。。

会有苦尽干来的一天吗？

Monday Blues

Hmmmm I wonder why the copy and paste function does not work on Blogger? I just typed a short blog on thought of copying it over, but now it is all gone, and I have to retype it all over again...

Oh well... I was saying that I don't feel like coming to work today.. too many things on my mind.. or perhaps it has to do with something happening at work? Oh I don't know.. maybe cos today is Monday?

Let's take things one step at a time... and try to kick the Monday Blues away...!

Feeling under the wind

I don't feel so well.... feeling kinda ill...

I keep sneezing, and starting to have phlegm too... I hope I am not falling sick, if I am sick then I will have to stay away from Evonne... that sucks!

It does not help that most of my colleagues are sick, either down with cough or flu... sigh... vitamins do your job!

Overpriced water

I was at lunch with colleags several days ago at this cafe in a clubhouse near office.

I had fried glass noodle and a glass of warm water. When we finished and went to pay, the boss told me that my total bill was MYR8.00. I distinctly remember that my fried glass noodle was only MYR6.00, and my water cannot be MYR2.00, so maybe the boss got the price of my glass noodle wrong.

So I asked him, "Boss, how much is the glass noodle?" "MYR6.00" was his reply.

Now I was really puzzled, and decided to probbed somemore, "Then how much is the glass of warm water?" "MYR2.00" was the answer.

What?? MYR2.00 for a glass of water? I had to ask him how much was a glass of iced tea. It was only MYR0.50! And a glass of herbal drink is also priced at MYR2.00! So how can my glass of plain water be MYR2.00?????

Felt so cheated, so I told the boss, "Boss, your glass of water very expensive ah?" And he had the cheek to reply "Yeah, a bit expensive...." There is no way I am going to order plain water ever from that cafe again. Actually, if I can, I would try to avoid going to that cafe, since the pricing is so inconsistent and totally off....

Still can't get over the fact that his glass of plain water costs MYR2.00... Issshhhhhh!!!

Good tasting and lovely looking birthday cake

This is my uncle's birthday cake this year.

It looks great don't you think?

And it taste great too... It is sponge based, but in the flavour of spinach and pumpkin.

Just thought I'd share this with you...

Intermitten internet transmission

The internet connectivity at my office has been crap of late... well it was not the best to begin with, but at least we knew ways around it and could function with the speed.

For the past week, it has just been bad. We could not even launch IE, it will just hang and all we get is white screen. So we could not do any work if we wanted to check on the internet, or go home and use our own internet to check.

I think this has to do with us cutting over to another IT provider... but the transition period is causing inconvenience to us users! AArrrggghhhh we cannot surf, cannot research, cannot pull data, cannot check on news... nothing... sigh...

Yeah I know what you are thinking, if that is the case how come I can still post this post right now? Well, that's a secret... cannot tell... shhhhhh.....
:-)

Have a nice weekend ahead...!

Really really annoyed

I have blogged about this before, but it is still happening...
There is this particular post that always attracts spam comments, from offering sexual services to dog health screening.. I have to go in once in a while to delete all the spam comments...

It is really annoying me, how can I prevent someone from posting spam comments? I am even contemplating disallowing comments on my blog...

Sigh...

Barbie Doll Jelly Skirt

I have been meaning to make this for a long long time now... and have been scouting the internet for recipes and methods on how to make barbie doll skirt jelly. I found some pictures but were not able to find ways on how to make it.

Finally I found it, in one of my mum's old recipe book.. and thought I'd give it a try... Mum said she had alot of colourings available so I was looking forward to a colourful jelly skirt, unfortunately we discovered that most of the colourings expired so we had to make do with the one purple colouring which I bought.... and this was the end result! What do you think?

I do apologise for the "nude top" because the barbie

doll which I bought came like that, and I mean to "dress her up" the next time I attempt this. This was just a first trial so cut me some slack kay....?

My Poor Pair of Heels

This happened sometime before Chinese New Year... I did not download my camera photos yet so I could not post this story... thought I'd share this story with you today.

I have this pair of heels, and I have not been wearing it for 1 year (due to my pregnancy). So after delivery and maternity leave, I thought I'd wear it to work one day. Well, that was the last that this pair of shoe saw sunlight...

In the office itself, one side of the sole decided to detach itself, to salvage it I took rubberbands and fastened it together. I managed to pull that off, but then the other side also decided to play the same trick.... never mind, also fastened with rubberband.

We had a department CNY makan at a club that day, and all of us made our way to the restaurant. Half way walking from the carpark to the restaurant, the strap holding my feet together decided to break too... so basically, only the rubberband was holding my feet and my shoe together. I could barely walk in that state... colleagues tried to help me but no one had extra pair of shoe so in the end I slowly dragged myself to the restaurant, and asked for more rubberbands at the restaurant.

Now, I am at the restaurant now. I need to walk back to the carpark, get into the car, and when I arrive at the office, walk from the carpark to the office lobby and take the lift to my office floor. I was seriously worried about how I was going to walk because the shoes had basicaly fallen apart, and there was no way to salvage it anymore.... After lunch, I very slowly dragged myself step by step to the carpark. Luckily a colleague drove towards me and picked me up and dropped me off at the office lobby, so I only needed to walk to the office lobby and take the lift up. Back at the office, a colleague had an additional pair of shoe to lend me so I was safe for the day. But I threw this pair of shoe right away, for causing me all the anxiety and humiliation... hahaha....

If you could not imagine how bad the state of the shoe was, fear not.. I have photos of it... hold and behold the pair of heels that made it to my blog today.....

Noticed the rubberbands holding the shoe together?

My pair of heels that fell apart

今天的感触

“没有过不去的事情，只有过不去的心情“，我觉得这句话说的太好了， 也让我有很大的感触。

唉，如果多点人会这样想就好了。。。

在忙着，迟点再会！

2 blogs....

Trying to maintain 2 blogs is almost a full time job! Never thought it could be so tiring... you have to remember events and update them on the correct sites, and try to spice up the blogs..

Sigh... am almost regretting starting a new site for Evonne... but then again it is really worth it as I get to share all her stuff there, and it is a site dedicated to her.. oh no... if I do have another baby does that mean I have to maintain 3 blog sites then? oh well, will cross the brige when I come to that stage... maybe I won't be into blogging by then...

Now, how do I let those who are interested to know more about Evonne know about her site? Besides physically telling all of you, and sending emails to some of my friends and relatives... how else?

A new chapter...

I have decided to start a new blog for Evonne, so any updates pertaining to my little princess will all be updated there.

This is so that my blog can still remain as my personal blog, dedicated to anything that I want to express, while Evonne's growing up journey deserve a blog by itself.

Just that I will have even lesser time trying to update both blogs.. well.. I try...

Oh yes, if you want to follow Evonne's journey, feel free to drop by...

www.evonne-lam.blogspot.com

A search for the lost me...

Through recent conversations with some close friends, I have slowly discovered that, in trying to please everyone, and in trying hard to fit it, I have done no one good. I have lost myself, I don't know who I am anymore, and I am definitely not happy. Not like anyone is happy, for that matter..

I have learnt to harbour things, and to keep quiet.. because there was no point bringing things up, it had always made matters worse... The aggressive and loudspoken me that once was, is now no longer in sight... A friend remarked that I am so different from school days, and she knew that I would have left all behind if the same thing happened back then.

Yes, I am no longer the old me, and I do not like the new me. If I have to, I would rather be the old me. Yes, I know I can choose to become the old me again, because life is short and I should try to live it and be happy while I am still here. Trying to please everyone is as sure as pleasing no one, that is so true but I cannot bring myself not to try and please them, and I often forget this saying too..

Yeah, I hardly have any social life anymore.. In fact, I do not remember when was the last time hubby and I went out for a nice dinner. My days are so routine now that I don't even get to go out... So bored of my current lifestyle... bored, and tired, and sian... and irritated, frustrated and unhappy... feel like leaving everything behind.. because there seems to be no way out of this but to end it. Maybe being cruel for once will be good for everyone..

Right, you have a lot of work to do..

I am in a bad mood today, bad working day.. because someone, or rather someone in a particular department at work pissed me off.

Summary of story, I did a presentation last week to stakeholders of my project, and one of them indicated that my calculation is wrong, and she will work out the calculation and let me know. So I chased her for it this week, and she got her boss and her boss' boss involved in this. In their email, all they have to say is that they are very busy, they have other things to do, and ask me to get off their back, and let them do their things. I should do the calculation on my own, and pass my calculations to them. The simple enquiry of when we can meet, and when can she pass me the calculation became a long series of emails asking me to get off their back, cc-ing everyone's boss.

Right, your department is very busy, and only your department has alot of initiatves, the rest of us are just walking around, shaking legs and waiting for our pay at the end of every month. That would be nice...

SPAM comments

For quite awhile now, I have had to manually delete some of the SPAM comments that are appearing on my blog. It is always the same few piece that will attract the SPAM comments, I don't know why...

This is getting annoying because I have to go in and manually delete the comments everytime they appear. Can blogger.com do something about this?

解脱

爱是不夜城
回忆像星辰
热泪越沸腾
我却感觉有点冷
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想若结局一样
又何苦再想
想若让人成长
我为什么帕分手的伤

解脱，是肯承认这是个错
我不应该还不放手
你有自由走我有自由好好过

解脱， 是懂擦干泪看以后
找个新方向往前走
这世界辽阔
我总会实现一个梦

心里有一种渴望勇敢的念头
不要爱我的人再担心我

I love this song, not only because of the lyrics, but also because it holds special meaning to me.

More photo editing..

Haha... addicted with photo editing for the moment, this is another photo that I really like...

Experimenting with photo editing software

Right... now, how do I do this? Never mind, let's try it out. I have been playing around with photo editing software of late.. like all mothers, am trying to create nice collage of my baby princess.. unfortunately I discovered that using my normal digital camera, there's quite alot of noise in most of my photographs so I don't really have a prize piece to share. But I am making the most of what I have right now.. this is one of the photos that I have edited with effects, and decided to blog it, and share her photo with you.

I am quite tempted to buy a DSLR now... sigh... but will it be cumbersome to learn DSLR and to carry around? Er.. will we have too many cameras in the house? Do we need it? But if I have any intention of getting one, I should get it soon because my baby girl is growing up so fast, and her features and face is changing constantly, I really do not want to miss moments of her growing up.. would like to capture all of it if possible. I only knew how much she has grown when I looked back at her birth pictures..

Baby Evonne..., mummy loves you!