Evonne's Photoshoot

I feel terrible that we got Evonne's dates all screwed up... and she doesn't get to wear her best on her photoshoot day in school.
For some reason we thought it is on the 10th, but it is actually today. I don't know what outfit she is wearing to take her photoshoot but I feel really bad and guilty. I am a bad mother.
Not anymore, am not going to leave it to chance, am going to calendar every activity so I will remember. Obviously brain memory is not working well these days, with so many things to think and worry about, and extra things to remember... all only depending on me to remember... brain memory full, need to insert more memory space.

Workshop

Getting jittery over the meeting starting in 5 mins... I'm conducting the workshop on CRM...
Wish me luck...

Posting on Facebook

Ever get the feeling it is no longer private nor safe to post status updates on facebook anymore?
Increasingly I am feeling that... When I want to complain about work I am wary that my colleagues are there, when I want to post something naughty, my acquaintances are there to read about it. If I want to rant about some colleagues yes colleagues are there. When I want to complain about family members oh boy they are there too... haha.. so it is no longer freedom to post...

Maybe that's why I have refrained from posting for a loong time, and I stick to other safer postings such as food porn and my kids' pic than random ramblings on fb...

Tired. Drained. Unhappy. 

Seriously... you need help

There really isn't a day that goes by without you getting angry.
Tired of your temper, flare up all you like.

It is not what others do to you that irk you, it is your inability to react to handle the situation and respond in a positive way. Think about it.

Marcus - New vocab

I have decided to try and blog down new achievements of my kids, so that I can remember and read all about it in future.

New achievements from Marcus of late:
1. He correctly identified the pictures and said the words "SUNGLASSES, CAMEL and JUMPING ROPE", which I totally did not expect. How did he get so smart? Who taught him that?
2. He mentioned to me the other day while trying to open the car door, "It's SLIPPERY!" SLIPPERY, for a 2.5 year old?
3. I came home from work one day, and he tucked at my work dress and said, " Mum, NICE DRESS" I was so surprised, and also so happy! At least one male in the house knows how to appreciate me and gives me compliment...

So that's it, the little achievements of Marcus of late, I still find it amazing about his progress.
Will find Evonne's achievements too and post about it, don't worry..

Ta ta!

Hazy Tuesday

The haze is getting worse, I just got back to work today, as I was on one day leave yesterday, and behold, the consistent routine resumes itself, early morning phone call to find fault and to scold and blame.
So my daughter's homework is my sole responsibility? When it becomes convenient it is ALWAYS my fault? Why does one have to call first thing in the morning to just find fault and scold? Is there no other reason to call me? What am I? A blame fault person so that you can feel better and relinquish your own guilt and responsibility? My mornings are almost always spoilt this way, and I cringe everytime I see a phone call from you because I know you are trying to find fault and you will inevitably find a way to scold me.

Then my mum fb message me and tells me the poster at home fell down, I can just imagine my husband's reply to this, " I told you it will not stick because the wall is too slippery, I TOLD YOU ALREADY BUT YOU STILL WANT TO STICK"...

Tired, tired tired of listening to people just complaining to me only. Maybe he is right, maybe I am the problem that's why everyone complains to me, scolds me and blame me. I allow it to happen, I allow them to do this to me. I suffer and endure the complaints in hope that there is peace and harmony but the situation just gets worse, and people start to take it for granted that I am the easy target to be blamed and scolded for everything, I am the scapegoat and they can just get rid of their guilt because they have put the blame on ME!

Irritated, tired, drained, feeling lousy, annoyed, upset...

Simply irritated, on a Monday morning...!

Arrrggghhhh...
so angry for being scolded for no reason at all... Hate people who call to spoil one's mood EVERY SINGLE TIME!

In a rude, inconsiderate way too, with a preconceived notion and intention to snap and scold one who has done nothing wrong at all!
YOU, owe me an apology!

Hehe... the little surprise

Switch was done last night, no indication of it being found out yet.
Let's see when it will be discovered... tee hee...

My new S4!

Just got my S4 last Thursday, and am simply loving my new phone!

能忍者

要发脾气谁不会？这么容易。。。谁都会！可是，要能忍和控制才算是上上策。你， 能吗？ 你，会吗？

凡事发了脾气就比较好解决吗？发了脾气你身边的人会开心点吗？只顾自己发脾气，却忽视亲人的感觉和感受，算什么好汉？

我，不喜欢身边的人随意的发脾气。 就这么简单。

Not a very high EQ period

I don't really believe in animal zodiac and all, but I have to say things happening of late made me changed my mind a little. I mean, I would go and see for the fun of it but would never believe all of what they said.

They say that this year is not a good year for Snakes, and that Snakes would be emotionally affected, some will even think of silly things, over think and all. I hate to think that I am one of them because I always believe that I have high EQ, but I have to admit that , ever since after CNY, I have been emotionally affected in more ways than one. 
At work, there are things that affects my emotions, time and again... 
At home, there are just issues and chores and having to deal with all parties...
There is no escaping from all these, no where to hide, no comfort zone, no one to talk to... no wonder I am stressed out... and no wonder I am so tired everyday. I am drained, physically from all the house chores, and emotionally from all the stress that I have to handle at home and at work. All these made worse by people who do not appreciate things that I do, and pick bones in eggs and stress me out even further. Yes, I am talking about you.

Tired. Don't want to be so drained out. My only consolation is that apparently after first month of Lunar calendar things would be looking up for me. I have 3 more days left... Just have to grit my teeth and hold it through.

Feel GOOD diary 2013

Haha.. While blogging about the do good diary, suddenly had this idea of having a feel good diary too. I suppose this is more for myself, to cheer me up, keep me going strong, motivate me when I am down, and lastly just to purely record anything positive, good that came my way during the course of day. Maybe can also act as a reminder to be thankful for what I have?

Anyway. Let's start it off and see what it eventually turns to..

#1 Redeemed a free Grande size Starbucks drink as I have accumulated enough drinks to earn it.
#2 Traffic was smooth to work today 21/02/13, and I got a relatively good parking too.
#3 Received a compliment that my 2 kids are cute and beautiful, just like me, from Kelly Woo :-) 21/02/2013,
#4 Hubby gave me a surprise and came looking for me for lunch today :-) 06/03/2013
#5 Bought mum's birthday present - a GPS for her! 06/03/2013
#6 Dress which I bought for Evonne came in a parcel today! 06/03/2013
#7 Am in a food tasting session today with the bosses, free meal yay!
#8 It's National Breakfast Day! Got my free Egg McMuffin from McD!

Do GOOD Diary 2013

I have decided to start this diary, to record my good doings for the year. This will incentivize me to more good, and also to reflect in the future of what good deeds were done throughout the year. Feel good factor if yo like... Well, a good deed should not go unrecognized right? Even if it's only recognized by myself.

Well, here we go..

#1 stopped when I have right of way, and allowed a Silver Toyota car to exit from a junction while on the way to work.

Pain!

I was carrying Marcus down the stairs with a toy trolley because he was crying after waking up, and somehow I fell at the turning point of the stairs while holding onto Marcus. Thankfully Marcus wasn't hurt, but I think his leg might have been bruised slightly because of the awkward way I fell.
Me? Well, I have big bruises on both legs, with skin coming out. I did not realize it But a big piece of my left elbow's skin is also scrapped off so now those injured area are all raw and expose to air and things. The slightest touch tithe wound will cause me to jump... It is just so painful.

My husband, who heard my scream when I fell, came and look and check. Once I told him that I fell down, his reaction was was not careful, next was why was I holding onto Marcus still which is why I fell. From just now until now he did not even ask was it painful, where did I hurt myself, was there any blood? NOTHING! I am not sure whether I am more upset or angry now.

He should manage his time and fold all his prayer stuff when the kids were asleep, not when they are awake and running around. He expects me to go and run after the two while he peacefully folds hs stuff there, right in the living room? It is impossible to control the movements of those two nice they are awake, if he thinks it is possible I'd like to see him do it! It is always like that, he just expect things to be done his way, everything and everyone to follow his time, his rules, his words... And when he says he is busy, you must MAKE SURE nothing disturbs him! So this being the case, and now I have multiple bruises on my hand and legs to remind me, do you really think I Want to have another baby so that I can be even busier than now, and have to run after 3kids? NO WAY man!!!!! You have clearly show your reaction and compassion during such circumstances, and I am not satisfied with it. S the answer is NO!

Appointment with dentist

Am going to see the dentist again now to fix up my teeth, the filling that she did for me 2 weeks ago is hurting every time I try to chew on something, so its making life really miserable for me. Lets hope hat this trip is the last visit until June when I have to go scaling again...

Good morning...

Start of the new year, and everything is almost back in full swing... Including the jam...
Took me 1.5 hours to get to work this morning.... It was jaammmmm man! No more getting up slightly later in the morning.. And pretty soon have to pack daughter's school stuff and iron her uniform too...

Being stuck in the jam is taking to much of my time... Precious time wasted on traveling to and from work everyday. Thankfully I have my iPad, so sometimes when I'm stuck in jam I can a least check my mails, surf the net or just play a game or two to alleviate my boredom.

But should such routine be continued?

My ipad2

Recently got a new iPad, the new iPad with Retina Display, I.e. ipad4.
So I put my old ipad2 online for sale, and today I'm gonna meet the potential new owner, let him check condition of my iPad, and if he is ok we will deal.

At this juncture, I'm really heavy hearted to it go... I like it a lot! It accompanied me to many places, and was my best buddy at work...

If the deal goes through today, I know will miss my ipad2.... Soo....

Hmmmm.....

Blogging from iPad

Yay, there is an app for Blogger, which means I can blog from my iPad in future! This is cool!

End of the world

According to the Mayan calendar, today is the end of their calendar, which some have interpreted as end of the world. To the Chinese, today is Winter Solstice, a day where we celebrate and enjoy tong yuen.

If today is the end of the world, I would spend an entire day with my kids, hugging, kissing and loving them. Spend time with mum, spend time with my closest family members and of course with hubby; telling all of them I love them and thank you for being a part of my life.

I also hope that all feelings of hatred, anger, upset, negative feelings towards one another can be forgotten. If today continues on, at least in our heart and mind this is a new beginning, forget about past negativities preventing us from moving forward. Let us just start anew... be the better person and forgive others. If others cannot do it never mind, at least you are doing it. I would like to be the better person.

Love,
Sue

Just feeling down...

After being stuck in jams for 3 hours before arriving at the office, I have second thoughts about going back to work.

I was working from home the week before as my baby sitters were away on holiday, and my boss was kind enough to allow me to work from home for the 4 days.
Matter of fact is, eventhough I was taking care of 2 kids, and the household chores, I was not as tired as waking up early to go work, jam to work, jam coming home, have dinner, play with kids and off to bed...

And my thinking of quitting the corporate got that bit stronger... but really dunno what to do, where to start... and it is depressing when we can never see eye to eye pertaining to important things, so things are always just left where they are... until they become important enough for us to do something about it.

I don't miss the jams, the traffic, I miss taking my son out to breakfast and picking my daughter up from school, and putting them to bed in the afternoon. I enjoy spending time with them...

I am very down the entire day today, so very unproductive that I feel guilty for being so unproductive but I just cannot pick myself up today.

Is it time to kiss the corporate world goodbye?