Will I be so tired that I give up trying?

Have you ever had the feeling of knowing that you cannot communicate with someone?


No matter how you try, what angle you pursue, what tactics, what method of communications they still don't work. Whatever you are trying to get at just does not get through. Period.

I am not sure if it was because of the way things were said, or was it selective hearing from the other party, but before I could even get to my point, I will often be forced to fend off defensive remarks and protect my "story". The conversation then takes a 180 degree turn, instead of me making my point, the other party will make his point, and I will often be left speechless.

Speechless to the point not knowing what to say in my defense. Although valid points and arguments crosses my mind but I am unable to put my thoughts into strong points and throw it back. Am I that useless? Or am I just tired of saying what I want to say, knowing that nothing I say will be taken seriously. When somebody starts a conversation with self denial and defense mechanism barriers up, is there room for new lights to shine through? Will the person listen, and admits that there is a possibility of new light to things?


The real question is: Will I get tired of trying to talk and explain things and just give up altogether, shutting down whenever I encounter resistance? Rather than trying to explain my stand and view points, I choose to remain silent instead?


It's already happening.. do you know..?

Mood: Do not feel like talking.. Pondering the "what-ifs" and wondering if my decision was ever justified.